Eventually, everyone will still leave you to achieve what they want or something better after they got the capability to and then you are left on your own again. Saw this coming some how long ago but I still feel a little lost and emotional over it.
As much as I tend to share things with people with the pure intention of hoping to see them get better and so I can see more people around me being better than me. I really love to see people who do better than me in any aspect because I know I can get to learn from them. Seeing people succeed in their own way with my small nags here and there makes me feels really happy for them. It doesn't matter to me whether or not my position has been threatened because I got better because it reminds me that I have been stagnant for too long.
But I think all the time and effort spent on nagging and meeting these people never fails to make me feel connected to them and I hate it when I know they will not be in my vision any more because they are out somewhere to explore things that I may not be able to help them in any more and I hate to see them fail and get hurt in any aspect.
Too motherly but too me.
I don't like people to leave because I only have those few people that I bother to connect truly with.
Every lost hold a big percentage in my life and so I always can't help to get affected by it.
I sincerely do wish everyone who matter stays but at the same time, sincerely hopes that some one good out there will offer them great things that I couldn't offer. Yet worries that the bond may not be the same from then. I'm hardly feminine but I guess this is one of the few times when I can't be decisive to let go or not to. HAHAHA.
Anyway, life goes on, and whatever is meant to stay will stay and whatever that is meant to go will go. So I guess I will just have to be prepared for the moment so I can react well to it and proceed with life as per normal.
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