Chill out @ ECP

Its Friday!! So glad that Friday has already arrived though I can't get to rest this weekend to begin with. Still, at least I got to wake up at 8 am instead of the usual 6.30 am so that is a 1.5 hour of extra sleep time that is worth celebrating! 

Super judgemental friend of mine but super nice as well.

Sat down at the break water listening to my favourite radio station for hours thinking about life with my friend. Thanks for making me get up the damn place that I took so long to come down after but well, at least it isn't a place I would go up alone. Thanks for accompanying me for hours without any complains and helping me sort out my mind. 

Hours of thinking made me understand the fact that no one has the ability to change others to begin with. I gave all I could in the previous relationship in hope that he will learn to see his own mistakes over playing the blame game but nope. The whole conversation still ended with me as the cause of his final decision. Maybe, it is good. At least, the story has come to an end now. 

I think I really got fatter. 

 There are so much thing that I could have done better as well. I could have been more forgiving, take all the blame and just not get bothered over trivial stuff. If only I learn to take a step back in every quarrel, or just admit defeat, probably it would save my previous relationship from a lot of unnecessary quarrel. But I know, even so, I wouldn't be happy because there is just this much of blame that I can take down. So I guess, it was a nice wrap up and the better choice for both of us at the very end. So it's time again for me to be brave, move on and continue to seek improvements on my own again! :)